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[Apr. 10th, 2007|12:10 am] |
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because you're awesome. and u commented on my post last time lol. i haven't much to say. well thats not completely true. i have a lot i could say but dont want to say right now. somethings frustrate the crap out of me, but i can't do anything about them. and some things are just way too confusing to put into words. so for today i'll just tell u about.....how easy it is to forget how blessed i am. funny how easy it is to spend enough money to sponser 3 or 4 kids for a month in like an hour at the mall. funny how reality is so masked by consumerism. i guess its not really funny. i dont really know why people use that expression...if its an expression at all. o well its not really a big deal. but as i was saying. i dont have a very good handle on money...its more like oh i have that much, i can buy it. when it should be like, i shouldn't spend that much...especially on that. or that often. i'm proud to say i have been restraining my shopping habits and i have improved slightly on the mass spending thing. i avoid the mall usually...its a dangerous place. and i'm trying to stop buying things...even though they're not expensive, just cuz they're not expensive and i might like them for a few days lol. dvds was a big thing lol. i used to buy so many, but now i'm starting to realize that its really not worth it. cuz most of them i haven't watched more than once since i got them. and i usually dont even want to watch them again lol. so ya...now i'll only get it if its really good. except for a few weeks ago when i bought the transporter...although that is a good movie..its not like my favorite movie in the world. like....PETER PAN! lol. haha even when i bought that one on dvd i didn't watch it for the first week and a half i had it. maybe i'm hopeless...someday i'll know. well thats all i think. |
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[Mar. 29th, 2007|09:32 pm] |
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its a surprise cuz i haven't posted on here for an eon. or two. anyway i'm in the mood for some posting today. basically i'm in the sort of questioning mood that makes me want to write things down. the future is scary. and the present is kinda scary too. like...is what i'm doing now what i'm supposed to be doing? my boss has been talking to me a lot lately about setting goals and things like that. 2 problems. 1. i can't think of any goals that i think i can achieve cuz i have fairly low confidence in myself. 2. how can i set long term goals when i dont know if i want to do this? hmmm. and there's so much talk of being successful and achieving goals...but they all sound so material. to be honest, i dont want to be a big time hairstylist raking in the big bucks...one, because i dont feel comfortable charging buttloads of money for things. and two because i just dont want the rich life. sounds kinda weird i guess, but its true. i just want to get married, help provide for the family, make a fair enough living that i can do that and help others too. and i dont want my life to be all about my job like so many "successful" peoples is. i want to have time for my family and to be involved in church...and just simple things like that. but i guess no one is forcing me to place super high goals. i can just set my goals to achieve these simple things. sigh. i'm glad God at least knows whats good for me. |
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[Jun. 17th, 2006|11:01 am] |
how come every time its nice enough to go to the beach i'm working!? or just busy. like today...when my friends are going...but i can't go cuz my aunt and uncle from calgary are coming over...which is really cool. but it means i can't go to the beach lol...and if they weren't coming...i'd have to work anyway. see? always working!
and tomorrow its calling for thunder storms. of course. and next weekend i'm working all weekend. ok. im done ranting now. hopefully that will help me not be so frustrated |
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[May. 2nd, 2006|12:59 pm] |
wow, i miss the old days when i used to journal on here just telling all the random things about my days....they were so exciting back then. now its just work and school all the time lol. but hey...there's always perks...like my boss' daughter's imaginary friend named mario. watching her play tag with mario is....well hilarious. i love it. but ya...work isn't too bad actually. i have a good life, i shouldn't complain. today i didn't go to school cuz my teacher wasn't there. yay for me! i got to sleep in, which i really needed cuz i was up til like 1 talking to kaylee last night, its good to have her back in town. ahhh i'm so excited, my cousin isn't going back to calgary for the whole summer! he went back for two weeks to hang out with his family and such, but then he's gonna come back and work with his uncle. i'm pretty darn excited about that. i hardly got to hang out with him at all this year during the school year, cuz he was so busy. but now...there's the whole summer. yay. i'm going to pei this summer i'm so excited! yay! so basically...of the people who livejournal. i haven't seen any of you in a really long time and that makes me sad. :(.
dear amanda
i hope you are well
love gianna
dear lauren
love gianna
i think you were both there for that....but it was a long time ago so i can't be sure. i appologize if one of you doesn't get it. <3 |
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[Feb. 5th, 2006|11:07 pm] |
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i get depressed everytime i think about it. but what if its just a phase? then i would be giving up everything that i've been given on a passing phase and i'll be just as stuck as i was before..if not more. but...what if God's calling me to give it all up? thats a sacrifce i'm willing to give. but what if i just think that cuz i dont want to do it? its not like i've been willing to give anything else up. i'm so confused. so depressed. i can't keep living like this. everything is meaningless. a chase after the wind. |
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[Dec. 20th, 2005|03:46 pm] |
 Dear Santa...
Dear Santa,
This year I've been busy!
Last week I pushed ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=92.1) mibbles in the mud (-17 points). Last Friday I ruled Iran as a kind and benevolent dictator (700 points). Last Wednesday I caught a purse-snatcher who stole caecae's purse (30 points). Last Thursday I stole aristides_gen's purse (-30 points). In May spirit_bomb and I robbed a bank (-50 points).
Overall, I've been nice (633 points). For Christmas I deserve a new bike!
Sincerely,
giaany |
sorry about that steve and the bank |
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[Nov. 7th, 2005|07:53 pm] |
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seems as though i dont really ahve aneed for this thing anymore...although i might continue to update with it.....for a few people's sakes...not right now though...i'd rather just talk to them about it haha. God bless u all |
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[Oct. 8th, 2005|10:59 am] |
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Its very possible, if not probable...that most of you do not read my journal when a song is posted. but that is ok. Who am I to tell you what you should and should not read?! So, therefore, today I'm going to post a song. Its a song I really like, by John Mayer...who I so happen to really like. Except for his song "Your Body is a Wonderland". However, it remains completely up to you if you decide to continue and read through the song or if you just skip over it. I really couldn't care less haha. But if you do feel like reading it...its a good song...unfortunately it sounds much better with the music and John Mayer's awesome voice...but hey...I do what I can. So if you want, you can make up some snazzy tune for it or something...feel free to sing it for me next time I see you. That would be fantastic! anyways..here's the song
I'm writing you to
catch you up on places I've been
You held this letter
probably got excited,
but there's nothing else inside it
didn't have a camera
by my side this time
hopping I would see
the world with both my eyes
maybe I will tell
you all about it when I'm
in the mood to lose my way
with words
Today skies are painted
colors of a cowboy's cliche'
And strange how clouds
that look like mountains in the sky
are next to mountains anyway
Didn't have a camera
by my side this time
Hoping I would see the
world with both my eyes
Maybe I will tell you
all about it when I'm
in the mood to lose my way
but let me say
You should have seen
that sunrise with your own eyes
it brought me back to life
You'll be with me
next time I go outside
just no more 3x5's
Guess you had to be there
Guess you had to be with me
Today I finally overcame
tryin' to fit the
world inside a picture frame
Maybe I will tell you all
about it when
I'm in the mood to
lose my way but let me say
You should have seen that
sunrise with your own eyes
it brought me back to life
You'll be with me
next time I go outside
just no more 3x5's
no more 3x5's
so there you have it :D |
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